Interesting day.

Had an interesting day at school today. Econs was the usual informative and interesting lesson with Dr. Baban Hasnat... :) But surprisingly, the comms lecture went by quite fast. Maybe it is because it is an interesting chapter, on interpersonal communication between a 'couple' couple... :) Loads of laughs, courtesy from our course mates... (One step in wooing a girl is to take a Neoprint???) But I realised something in class today... Time for a deep insight from the mind of Jeremy!!! *Da da dum* When we try to break everything down into scientific insights, the world loses its magic... When we try to describe the beauty of the sky, the mountains and the seas with science, try to quantify and qualify it, it suddenly seem that magic is magic no longer... Can we retain our wide-eyed wonder and our innocence when viewing this world? Are we too jaded, too cynical? The world is supposed to be filled with magic; every breathe we take, every step we walk, every colour, everything!!! Okay okay, enough ranting... Had a good time in lecture today, partly because English cow and I were playing our version of "Guess that song!" Hahaha... Silly stuff... The only drawback is that I missed most of what the teacher was teaching... And the mid term is on Wed!!! Hahaha... Had my prayers answered too!!! My practice sessions for my driving has been changed to the dates I wanted!!! Awesome!!! Must pass this time round!!! Busy days ahead so until later...

Writer's block!!!

Argh!!! Writer's block!!! I am supposed to write an essay by Fri and I can't seem to get started!!! I don't know where my essay is supposed to be heading and the double spacing thingy is not helping one bit... I can't even determine my topic!!! HELP!!! Hahaha... Oh man... I seriously don't know how am I going to finish up my essay... And I am going to have another marathon session of comms lessons tomorrow!!! Oh man... Now I am panicking!!! Well, back to hitting my head against the wall aka atempting to write my essay...

Busy busy bee!!!

Wow!!! Really didn't imagine that school will be so busy!!! I still have many things I have not even started on yet... And with all the deadlines looming... Oh no... Somebody call 995!!! Going to faint!!! Or maybe my head will explode first... Or maybe I will faint and then my head will explode!!! Hahaha... I think that will be the case... When will this madness end??? Must really pace myself and do consistent work... Starting tomorrow!!! Because tonight, I have to study for the Econs quiz tomorrow... Don't know how the standard will be like... Hopefully the MCQs will not be so tough!!! Praying for it!! Hahaha... Well, got to go.. Later...

Good day out!!!

Wow!! Just reached home not too long ago... Stuffed my face full of food just now!!! Until bursting point!! Hahaha... Really want to thank the person who made this happen... You know who you are!!! :) And had a good time of fellowship just now... Enjoyed myself... Talked about so many things!! And not just idle chatter... Good thought provoking stuff... :) Saw two cute little boys at the adjacent table too... Were running all over the place... And they are so shy... One was right beside me and I asked him for his name and he did something so cute!!! He covered his face in shyness!!! Hahaha... Am I so repulsive? :P Hope not... Oh yeah, something interesting happened today... A native Chinese tourist came up to us today and asked for help about how to go to Sentosa... Sometimes, we are so familar with something that we take it for granted... Suddenly it was so difficult to explain how he should go to Sentosa via MRT from City Hall station... Anyway, we were going in the same direction so we asked him to come along... On the way, being the friendly Singaporean that I am, I struck up a conversation with him.. I realised that my conversational Chinese stinks!!! He was so fluent and I felt like so embarrassed to be speaking Chinese to him... Could not understand some stuff he was saying... And he asked me somethings that were thought provoking.. He asked me where my forefathers were from, because he said most Singaporeans are Chinese so he asked which part of China my forefathers were from... And I did not know!! Oh man... Are we really losing our roots? Are we drifting out of touch with our heritage? I will ask my parents about it when they come home!!! And he was asking where I was studying and all and what major... I did not know how to put it in Chinese... And he said it is alright, I can speak in English... Gives me something to ponder about... :P But as a communications student, it is so interesting that although there may be language barriers and all, it can still be overcome with some human empathy and of course, a large doses of the Traveller-sign-titis... :P Using large actions to bring across your point and immediately labelling yourself as a traveller... :P Well, I did not have much problems communicating the basics of what I wanted to say but I am just saying that words are not the only means that we are reach out to each other... Communication is all around!!! :) Cool major to do... The studying is not too cool though... Hahaha... Anyway, forgot to write about something I witnessed on the train... Was chit chatting and out of the blue, a little boy started screaming!!! He was speaking in Malay so did not really understand and I thought that he was just throwing a tantrum and it will all be over soon... But goodness gracious, his mum started SCREAMING back at him in the people-packed carriage!!! He started screaming back his mum just whacked him hard... And hard I mean that even I, who was just watching out of the corner of my eye discreetly could sense the impact!!! I cringed!!! It was literally thumping loud!!! The boy continued screaming and basically making a big hoo haa... The whole carriage just went into shock!!! Deathly silence reigned... His mum just casually turned away and talked to her friend while the boy kept crying and shouting... Just when he was about to quiet down, his mum whacked him again!!! And not surprisingly, he started all over again!!! Good thing they got off soon... So awkward... It's tough being a parent I tell you... Be nice to your parents!!!

Exodus 20:12 "Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you. "

P.S. Have not heard from my parents for 2 nights... Hope that they will come back with what I asked them for... :P

Refreshed!!!

I am feeling so refreshed right now.. :) God is good!!! Feeling lousy last night, in fact for the past few days.. But after cg and service today, I feel so much better.. Refreshed and feeling good!!! Awesome!!! :) Hahaha.. Can't stop feeling happy now.. Too tired to think of anything else to say though.. Hahaha.. Oh yeah, my driving test is coming up!!! Must pass must pass!!! Hahaha.. And my mum still have not called from Japan... Wonder how they are.. Enjoying themselvs without me.. Just hope that they will bring back what I want.. :)

Tired, can't think straight.. My home seems so quiet, so empty.. Everyone's in Japan.. Well, I will have the whole place to myself for a whole week.. That's something that I can get used to.. :P But must feed the fish and water the plants though.. Work work work.. Hmmm.. Everything I do seem to be the wrong thing.. Feel like I am swimming upstream against the current.. Maybe things will look better in the morning.. Sure hope so.. So many things to say, not enough words to put it into.. My heart is full, full of so many things to say but nothing can be put into words.. I don't even know what I am talking about.. Just so... tired...

Lamentations 3:22
Through the LORD's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not.

Draw me away...

Oh, come and draw me away,
Don't want to wait, let it be today.
Take me now, to where You are,
No matter how near, no matter how far.
Will You cast aside my shame and disgrace?
So that once again I can see Your face.
Not in the wind, earthquake nor fire,
Let Your still, small voice be my only desire.
Wash me clean, make me whole,
Give me strength to relinquish control
Let me decrease and You increase more,
Let me know what I am supposed to live for.
Let me know where You are to be found,
Turn that place into sacred ground.
Leave a memorial, build an altar,
Bring me back there whenever I falter.
Remember me now and hear my cry.
Keep me close until the day I die.

Better than Shake-wats-his-name...

Here's something two absolutely creative people wrote about their current mutual obesession... Sewper Monkey Ball Tip and Tilt!!! For the clueless, well... you just have to remain clueless... Hahaha... It is a game where you navigate a cute monkey in a ball around different stages and collect bananas for points and try to beat the clock... :) Simple concept but not easy at all... Anyway, this poem is probably the greatest poem EVER, according to my co-writer... So... Enjoy... :P

Monkey, monkey in a ball,
The goal at the bottom will break your fall
Flipping and rolling to beat the drop
Once you start you can never stop
Collect the bananas and up your score
Further still, a little more
One moment of carelessness, one moment of doubt
Suddenly it is all over, Monkey fawlout!!!

Dislaimer: No monkeys were hurt physically in the writing of this poem. I cannot ensure their feelings are still intact. All bananas are organic and fair trade. The balls the monkeys are in are made of 100% biodegradable material. And spelling errors in the poem are totally intentional. If it offends your sensibilities to see monkeys plunge to a helpless ending in a plastic encapsulation, please do not play this series. All monkeys are trained professionals. They are paid bananas and occasionally, peanuts. Please do not attempt any actions seen in the game. And please do not attempt to stuff yourself into a plastic ball. Thank you.

Can I?

Can I just be me?
Can I just be free?
Can I have my own life station?
Can I live without heavy expectations?
Can I stop hiding behind a mask?
Can I not feel lonely, from morning to dusk?
Can I say that I feel so small?
Can I say I feel nothing at all?
Can I feel tired and feeble and weak?
Can I feel I have no more words left to speak?
Can I be human, made of flesh and blood?
Can I say I cannot swim, amidst the raging flood?
Can I live my life and never conform?
Can I sing to my own tune, play to my own song?
Can I say that I am going to fall?
Can I laugh as I go through it all?
Can I not feel like a candle burnt at both ends?
Can I yearn for the comfort of just one true friend?
Can I say that I am scared, that I am afraid?
Can I stop having doubts and fears in my head?
Can I say I am running on empty and nothing more?
Can I say I can't even jump, much less soar?
Can I?
Can I?

Car!!!

At last!!! Have a bit of breathing room... The quiz today was not too tough, slightly tricky though... Had a marathon session of comms... 3 hours!!! It's an interesting subject to learn about though... :) Still quite busy though... Realised that there are many assignments due soon and I have not even started!!! Oh man... Must find a conducive environment to do my work and all... Must start to put in effort in my studies already!!! All the teachers are stressing that we must put in consistent effort... My comms teacher even said that it is not uncommon for students in the US system to score A's in their modules... Stress is piling up!!! Hahaha... And cynthia is coming back tomorrow!!! At last!!! Feel so lost, like wandering in the wilderness without her... Hahaha...
Anyway, on another note, one of my good friends just got his own car... Awesome feeling!!! Having one's own car is like, how do I put it, is like reaching full maturity!!! Hahaha... Still awaiting my turn!!! Have to get my license first... The test date coming up!!! Can't wait... Hopefully the tester will not be so stingy and penalise me for the smallest slights... :)
And my parents are going to Japan this Fri... Without me!!! Will be home alone for a week!!! Hahaha... New experience for me!!! Woo hoo!!! Bring the roof down!!! Hahaha... As if... Til next time...

Work work work!!!

Whew... Uni life is so busy!!! Don't let anybody tell you otherwise... Feel so overwhelmed all of the sudden... Realised that I have so much work to do, so many things to study, so many deadlines to meet, so much self study to do... Took a quiz today... And received the results of another... Didn't do all that fantastic although I passed... And there's another quiz coming up on Wed!!! When will this madness end? Maybe three years later... I am complaining about having so many things to do and here I am blogging... Hahaha... Can't really get into the studying kind of mood though... Not that I ever had the mood to study... :P Well, also realised that actually, teachers are absolutely NOT infallible... But I still respect my teachers okay? Only that they are not almighty and all... :) Hahaha... And realised that actually, the Newpaper has 'Ah Beng' writers and editors... I spotted 2 headlines that was splashed across the front page that can be said only by 'Ah Beng's... :P my friends in SIM would know... feel that I am making a nuisance acting out the headlines in my inimitable style... NOT... hahaha... and speaking of 'Ah Beng', as a Singaporean, how would YOU describe him to a foreigner? And with that, I leave you with food for thought... :P

Charmer...

Woah man... Realised that I have super powers!!! hahaha... went to accompany my sis from the MRT station after my previous post... On the way back, saw a cat stretched out languidly on the ground... Clicked my tongue at it, scratched it under its chin and behind the ears... My sis hurried me along and as I was leaving, I turned back and using my super duper special cat calling skills, I clicked my tongue at it again... The cat, being a temperamental creature, rolled on its side... twice!!! And as a last ditch effort, I clicked my tongue again and guess what? It got up to follow me!!! Hahaha... The cat charmer strikes!!! But my sis scared it off... Saw another cat at my void deck (must be me attracting all the cats in the neighbourhood :P) and clicked my tongue at it and IT FOLLOWED ME AGAIN!!! Hahaha... I guess cats like me... Maybe it's because my feet smell of fish!!! :P Stinky!!! But please don't hate... It ain't my fault... Hahaha!

Catch the wave!

Wow!!! What an awesome weekend!!! Hahaha... Saturday and Sunday services were so good... Really stirred up in my heart and spirit... God is real and He can move!!! Right now is a season of re-laying our foundations for greater things ahead!!! Catch the wave! Just want to let this entry be one to remind me of the things that God is doing right now... And the new worship song is great too!!! Got 'feel' ar... Hahaha... I also realised that people can be in the same place, hear the same thing, experience the same presence of God and yet go out of the place with a different attitude... Oh God, let me be of a different spirit, to desire You so much more!

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Simple statements at first glance, but they contain so much wisdom and anointing... Still waters run deep... Often, it is the simplest things that make us stop and think, that make us want to delve deeper...

Whew

Whew.. I just realised that I have to 'attractive-fy' my blog and all.. There's so much that needs to be done!!! Right now, my blog is still in its 'baby' phase... Not the cute and cuddly part but the clumsy and ungainly part.. Hope that a kind soul would come along and help me with all these stuff.. I am such a newbie!!! :( So much to learn, so much to do... But work never ends.. However, sleep beckons.. Its siren call is just too alluring.. *hello, my bed and pillow, please allow me the utmost pleasure to make your aquaintance once again...*

1st post

Hi to the world!!! Welcome to my world... :) Finally, I succumb to popular culture and started a blog... hahaha... I would like to state up front that I am not a sell out to my principle of not giving in to popular culture but rather, this blog is out of neccessity due to my English writing class... oh who am I kidding?!?!? I am a bandwagon jumper-on as well!!! Albeit a late bloomer... An extremely late bloomer... I reckon that not many people will be interested in the inane ramblings of my inchoate mind... But this is my voice; although it is a puny voice amidst the sea of voices, it is still my voice!!! So enough of my welcome speech... Once again, welcome to the extremely convoluted, at times dark, at times eye-searing bright and chipper, at times entertaining (hopefully) and all the time sincere online symbolic world of mine!!! Cheers!!!