Heartache...

Heartache.. :'( more information to come... I will never ever be harried into doing things again!!! I will develop a thick skin and don't care about people with lousy attitudes!!! :) Buck up!!!

Happy day...

Happy day today... :) More information coming soon... Well it would have been much more happier if the weekend did not seem so intimidating and overwhelming... Have to rush a number of things this weekend... There's 2 music reviews and 5 more comms journal entries... God help me!!! Well, still a happy day... :)

Friday the 13th...

Friday the 13th... What went wrong for you today? Well, almost everything went wrong for me today... To start from the top, right from the word 'Go', my day today stunk... I woke up early to head off to school to study for the Econs quiz today... And guess what? The pipe beneath my sink burst!!! The whole kitchen was flooded and the water even reached the hall! I had no way to turn the mains off as the key went MIA... I stayed around at home until my dad rushed back from his workplace... Finally managed to turn off the gushing water... HDB dwellers out there, for your information, there is a stop valve underneath the sink... Just so you know... Wasted my time... Had a foreboding feeling about the whole day... I made my way to school to meet fluddy... She called and did not believe that my pipe burst and that I was still at home... Hahaha... Anyway, I met her in school to study for the Econs quiz and found out from her that it was Friday the 13th!!! That explains everything.. The day went by quite smoothly though... Until Econs... I did the worse I have even done since I started school for a quiz... :( Not thinking clearly.. Argh!!! Really angry with myself... Friday the 13th stinks!!! Hahaha... Notice that bad results are the fault of Friday the 13th and not because of my own carelessness... :P Well, have another chance to make up for this lousy score at the next quiz... Crossing my fingers for good grades!!! :) Onward, Jeremy!!! Buck up!!!

Enduring love...

So touched today... Went for my grandmother's 3rd year death anniversary and something etched itself into my heart... Met my paternal extended family at Changi Village there to take a ferry to the spot where we casted grandma's ashes into the sea... Have been doing this for the past couple of years and don't really have much insight and feelings other than missing my grandma and the regular stuff... But I realised that my granddad, who is more than 80 years old and has a slight difficulty moving around, still makes the effort to go all the way down to Changi to pay his respects... Takin the bus and the MRT all the way... I was suddenly struck by his enduring love for my grandma... I realised that I have not been spending much time with him and feel regretful... But once I drive, I must make it up to him... Well, anyway... I thought back and realised that through it all, when my grandmother was sick and bedridden, he took care of her and never once did I see him complain about it or do anything grudgingly... In sickeness and in health... That's what it is all about... My granddad's a great person!!! Mid year resolution- must spend more time with my granddad... :) That is called love... Not the kind where people get together and break apart over the smallest slight, loss of feelings and all that nonsense... Imagine how he felt when his loved one is lying there dying slowly day by day and he can't do anything... But still he stayed faithful... And believe you me, it is not easy to take care of my grandma... Not that she was purposely being dificult but caregivers don't have it easy.. Of coursed he had help from my family... But I consider him the primary caregiver because he spends the most time with her... Oh well, before I slip into a melancholic mood, I just want to say publicly that I love my family!!! My mum, my dad, my sis and my extended family... :) P.S. My sis is so funny... She got the same phone as me and she knows that I may get upset so she is hiding it from me!!! Hahaha... But my mum told me and I am not the least bit angry... :P So cartoon she.. Still want to buy casing for the phone... How long does she think she can keep it from me? :P

Does everything seem the same?
Are the motions real or has it become a game?
The mirror shows that everything is in place,
But does it show the turmoil beneath the face?
A cry from the depths, does anyone hear?
Its silent nature, past thresholds of the ear.
But everyone is caught up, no one can fathom.
The enveloping emptiness, the yawning chasm.
A swirling vortex sucks deeper than deep.
How much longer can one's strength keep?
Feelings and thoughts can hurt you the most.
Leave rubble behind and hundreds of ghosts.
Everything inside had turned into stone.
A field where nothing can be sown and grown.
Take none of the glory, take all of the blame,
Nothing is different, only the name.