Oh man

Oh man.. sure hope that kindness begets kindness.. I was tired after a whole day out and after dinner, I dragged myself to fetch my sister from Suntec.. Out of the goodness of my heart I must add.. :P So as I was making a right turn at a traffic light near my house, I mistakenly assumed that there was a right turn green arrow and I didn't slow down although the light was already amber.. I passed the 'Stop' line before I realised that there was no right turn green arrow and stunned, I stoped my car.. In the middle of the road for the oncoming traffic!!! Then just as the oncoming traffic started moving, I had no choice but to drive off.. Had to avoid some uncles on their motorbikes eager to go home and not expecting a young punk to pull such a stunt!!! I just hope that nothing goes wrong.. I guess I have to wait until the end of next month to know whether I am let off the hook.. No flash at the traffic light though.. A small comfort.. Check back here in a month's time to learn of my fate..

Parting is such sweet, sweet sorrow..

We just had our multiplication today.. As I intuited, I am still with Cynthia.. Well, every end is a new beginning and I believe that good things are along the way! There is reason to rejoice as this is the start of something exciting!!! But then again, this happiness is somewhat mixed with a lot of other feelings.. It just hit me that life would be different from now on.. Looking at the different groups, the people that I consider good friends are in the other group.. I feel a bit sad as I know that no matter what people say about keeping in touch, the maxim, 'Out of sight, out of mind' is the reality.. I feel regret, as time seemed insufficient to really befriend some people whom I felt that we could have grown closer.. But I know that no matter what, life moves on and I am grateful for this chance for all of us to grow.. So to anyone reading from W279(A) or W279(B), you guys are always regarded as special people to me.. Trust in Him, that His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.. We will still see each other around so don't forget me as I won't forget you guys.. :) Keep on keeping on!!

New Year Resolutions

Well, I was out shopping with my mum on Friday and I realised something that perhaps other people have realised but not me until Friday; that I am hopelessly out of shape!!! Changing rooms mirrors don't lie.. :P In this last quarter of the year, I have slackened off in my working out.. And I snack too much!!! So I am going to put one of my New Year's resolution into play earlier.. Starting tomorrow, I am going to dedicate myself to living a healthy lifestyle, eating properly and exercising more.. So here's my plan:
-Fast food only once a fortnight or less
-potato chips and junk food once a week or less
-eating 5-6 small meals per day
-watching what I eat
-not falling asleep right after a meal
-sleeping early and waking up early at 7 a.m. everyday
-going for a jog in the morning or at night everyday
-clocking at least 15km per week
-resistance training thrice a week
-keeping a food log
At least this is the outline.. I will be going into the details when I have the time.. :) But starting tomorrow, this will be my plan for a healthy lifestyle and a healthy body!!! No more laziness and procrastination.. A healthier Jeremy in 2008!!!

Another pair of mouldy jeans?

Looks like the end of the year weather is forcing me to put my jeans into the washing machine.. Going to wash my PBJs today.. Maybe paranoid but it seems as though they are mouldy as well.. Small patches of what may be talcum powder but then again, talcum powder would coat the entire jeans and not just patches.. Argh!!! I dislike the rainy season.. Cold and clammy and unable to get a good airing for my jeans.. Well, I can't be bothered anymore.. Going to use regular detergent and Dettol.. Once again, mould away!!! Bleah..

Another one of those nights...

Well, it's only a few minutes after Christmas and I spent Christmas in the fashion that I like best; quietly.. Couldn't sleep so was just randomly surfing the Net when this wave of melancholy just swept over me.. I realised that it is indeed lonely in this world.. When the dance is over, when the dust has settled and when the lights are turned off, what we have left over from the music, laughter and the masks is just an echo, a pale imitation of what we experienced.. Nothing more, nothing less..
I just suddenly realised how important it is to have someone to be there in times like these.. And guess what? I don't think I have found that person yet.. Who would be willing to listen to me ramble on about intangible and vague feelings of loss, of melancholy? Perhaps only one person in this whole wide world.. And that person is not in my life as of yet.. So I trudge on..
There has always been talk about having a hole in the heart, in the soul and I did not believe in this kind of talk until recently.. There seems to be a certain emptiness in my life, sonething that I can't fully describe.. Perhaps it is the longing for a soul mate.. Perhaps it is the longing for someone I can truly call a friend, a confidant..
People come and go in our lives.. People who come and stay will change.. I change as well.. Distances are bridged and distances are formed when people drift apart.. Like the rise and ebb of the tide, different seasons call for different people in life..
I used to think that I can get along with the almost any kind of people, that I am open minded and not judgemental.. Recent reflections are proving otherwise.. Have I become cynical? Have I become judgemental? I guess in a way..
I truly hope that beneath the veneer of what people see on the outside, there will be some to take time to get to know me more.. And I also hope that when they take that effort, they would find something worthwhile in me and they would choose to take me into their inner circles, as I would to them.. I don't need too many of these people; but with these people, I like to think that nothing would be too difficult, no one would seem too intimidating and that when the storms of life blow hard, there is a safe harbour to hide in..

Change

Change is the only constant in the world. Cliched but true. I realised that change is indeed constant in our lives; that people and things would never remain the same. Especially people. People whom I used to call close friends in the past are no longer so. Perhaps it is the distance, perhaps it is the time apart or perhaps it is because we have changed. I cannot help but feel a twinge of regret at the changes in the relationships in my life. Chances are that I have changed as well and maybe that has contributed to the growing gap.. But the sad thing is that when two people are moving in different directions, the gap grows even faster.. Hahaha.. Saying all these makes me feel like I need someone in my life, who would walk in the same direction that I am going in; someone who would not change direction but always walk beside me in this journey of life.. The jig to my saw, the tick to my tock, the hic to my cup.. Hahaha..

Thankful

First things first.. Lest I get complacent and think that I am strong when I am not, I want to thank God for my school results. Although there is still one subject's grade yet to be released, my grades so far are very satisfactory. :) But it is not by my power nor by my might but by His Spirit. So thank you God! :)

Mouldy jeans!!!

I was turning my Eternals the right way around (I hung it inside out to air) and to my horrors of horrors, there was mould on the jeans!!! I don't know how long it has been there.. Guess it's due to the wet weather and the jeans being damp when I put it out to air and dry.. Oh man.. My baby is in the washing machine right now.. Using some supposedly gentle washing detergent and Dettol.. No fanciful detergents.. Going to get some natural detergents soon.. Hope that the wash turns out fine.. :) Mould away!!!