Now this is that I call science. It's super duper awesome cool! Invisibility cloak.
The power of science!!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Switch off
I am going to say something and I hope that anyone out there reading this would not look upon me poorly for saying this: I am only human and I am very flawed. Please do not judge me when I fail or I fall, when I scream or I shout, when I slip or I trip. I am only human, and by nature am flawed. I am not perfect and never will be; I am just human, that everyone can see.
One major flaw that I have is that I am not open as people want me to be or even not as much as I want to be. I am in too much 'control' of my emotions that sometimes it's scary how easily I turn them on and off. Maybe not control but surpressing? Anyway, I can almost feel a physical sensation when I shut down my emotions pertaining to certain things. And of course, this 'mechanism' is not perfect. There are times when I am unable to control my emotions and there are times I choose not to. But it's still a rather scary thing, to be almost able to feel that 'switching' off of my emotions. Also, being melancholic in nature, I feel that slightly darker emotions have a stronger pull and a more lasting effect on me. So I tend to focus on those emotions more. They are in a way, not as easy to control.
Anyway, time to 'switch off' again.
'It's just emotions, taking me over. Caught up in sorrow, lost in a song.'
One major flaw that I have is that I am not open as people want me to be or even not as much as I want to be. I am in too much 'control' of my emotions that sometimes it's scary how easily I turn them on and off. Maybe not control but surpressing? Anyway, I can almost feel a physical sensation when I shut down my emotions pertaining to certain things. And of course, this 'mechanism' is not perfect. There are times when I am unable to control my emotions and there are times I choose not to. But it's still a rather scary thing, to be almost able to feel that 'switching' off of my emotions. Also, being melancholic in nature, I feel that slightly darker emotions have a stronger pull and a more lasting effect on me. So I tend to focus on those emotions more. They are in a way, not as easy to control.
Anyway, time to 'switch off' again.
'It's just emotions, taking me over. Caught up in sorrow, lost in a song.'
Monday, January 12, 2009
New semester
So, my new semester has started and can't say that I have a good feeling about this semester. It's going to be one tough semester, with many changes and all that. For one, everyone are like in different classes. Acquaintances are acquaintances; good to say hi and bye to but together in a class and all that without closer friends, tough. I just feel that, if one is in a class of acquaintances, with their own cliques and all that, sometimes it's just easier to work in a class of strangers. I guess that's why it's so important to be working or studying with people who are not only friendly but whom you are comfortable with.
More than just that, the workload for this semester is also going to be quite heavy, and I just dropped a module that may delay my graduation time. I have got a super duper extra tough school day every Wednesday and when I emailed the administration to adjust, they just said I should drop a module if I feel that I could not cope as the class I want is full. What sort of advice is that?!
I really need grace this semester; grace to make it through, and make it through well. But who knows that the semester has in store? But we frame our world with our words; so I speak to you, New Semester, that you are going to be a fulfilling and enjoyable semester for me! :)
More than just that, the workload for this semester is also going to be quite heavy, and I just dropped a module that may delay my graduation time. I have got a super duper extra tough school day every Wednesday and when I emailed the administration to adjust, they just said I should drop a module if I feel that I could not cope as the class I want is full. What sort of advice is that?!
I really need grace this semester; grace to make it through, and make it through well. But who knows that the semester has in store? But we frame our world with our words; so I speak to you, New Semester, that you are going to be a fulfilling and enjoyable semester for me! :)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Perspective
I just had a epiphany: Everything is just a matter of perspective. Sometimes, a mere shift in perspective can set things right. Choose to look at things from a different angle, with a different light and you may surprise yourself. Try it out, it may work for you like how it worked (somewhat) for me! :)
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Big ticket item 2009
Okay.. I think this year's big ticket item for me would be... a nice DSLR! Thinking of a Canon (what else?) Hahaha. Check this picture I took with ting ting's camera.
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w5DEc7tBJ-c/SWZEJSZDrhI/AAAAAAAAATc/YIAdWkw626A/s1600-h/n535073082_1953430_1857.jpg (courtesy of Sarah's blog)
I think I caught the photography bug. I am so going to start saving money; perhaps I could save enough in time for those tech fairs thingies toward the end of the year. But the only thing that worries me is that I would be blowing a lot of money of something that I could possibly have like, 3 minutes of interest in. Oh well, I sure hope not. I want to be those arty farty types who carry camera everywhere they go and can make the most mundane things look... magical. Make the plainest thing look beautiful! Change lead into gold! Hahaha. :P And since I am absolutely NOT creative in the fine arts of music and song, nor at drawing, and with just a tiny (imagined???) talent in writing, I should look to develop other areas of my creativity right? Right? Right?! Right?!?! Good. So... Creativity, here I come! Or at least, I would try to.
P.S. I was talking to ting ting and this quote is so good that I have to have it somewhere to remember it by. By Germs: 'All gifts are meted out with unequal measure but with equal pleasure.' ;D
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w5DEc7tBJ-c/SWZEJSZDrhI/AAAAAAAAATc/YIAdWkw626A/s1600-h/n535073082_1953430_1857.jpg (courtesy of Sarah's blog)
I think I caught the photography bug. I am so going to start saving money; perhaps I could save enough in time for those tech fairs thingies toward the end of the year. But the only thing that worries me is that I would be blowing a lot of money of something that I could possibly have like, 3 minutes of interest in. Oh well, I sure hope not. I want to be those arty farty types who carry camera everywhere they go and can make the most mundane things look... magical. Make the plainest thing look beautiful! Change lead into gold! Hahaha. :P And since I am absolutely NOT creative in the fine arts of music and song, nor at drawing, and with just a tiny (imagined???) talent in writing, I should look to develop other areas of my creativity right? Right? Right?! Right?!?! Good. So... Creativity, here I come! Or at least, I would try to.
P.S. I was talking to ting ting and this quote is so good that I have to have it somewhere to remember it by. By Germs: 'All gifts are meted out with unequal measure but with equal pleasure.' ;D
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Blindness
So after many, many years of wearing spectacles, I finally gave in and went to make contact lenses today. At Kev's mum's shop. Due to my super duper lousy eyesight, my contacts must be made special and they cost a whooping amount!!! And that's after a super discount discount. Oh man. So expensive. And I will definitely get people telling me whatnot, that I look better with spectacles and I look funny without spectacles and the like. But I don't care! Or at least I try not to. Spectacles are getting bothersome to me. It's not a vanity issue with me. There, I said it. So to all you people who are going to laugh at me, in front of me or behind me, RAWR!
So anyway, going to the optician always makes me scared. Not because I have a phobia. But because everytime I go to the optician, my eyesight is proven to have worsen. It's like I am becoming blind bit by bit. And the scary part? I can't do anything about it. I can't Lasik because my cornea is too thin. I can't do anything to reverse the deterioration of my eyesight. I am so scared of becoming blind. :(
So I decided to consult a specialist at the Singapore National Eye Center soon, to see what can be done. But first, I must waste hours upon of hours of my life at the polyclinic to get a referral. And I have to get it done soon. Oh, how I wish I had better eyesight! Don't let me experience the dark, the dark of not being able to see.
So anyway, going to the optician always makes me scared. Not because I have a phobia. But because everytime I go to the optician, my eyesight is proven to have worsen. It's like I am becoming blind bit by bit. And the scary part? I can't do anything about it. I can't Lasik because my cornea is too thin. I can't do anything to reverse the deterioration of my eyesight. I am so scared of becoming blind. :(
So I decided to consult a specialist at the Singapore National Eye Center soon, to see what can be done. But first, I must waste hours upon of hours of my life at the polyclinic to get a referral. And I have to get it done soon. Oh, how I wish I had better eyesight! Don't let me experience the dark, the dark of not being able to see.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Twenty-oh-nine
So, 2008 has just passed, and we have stepped into a new year, 2009. This is the first year in a long time that I am crossing into the new year without much hoo-haa and fanfare and this sort of gives me time to think. To reflect about things and also to think about how I want 2009 to be.
I hope that for me, 2009 would be a year of greater heights, and of greater breakthroughs. 2009 would be a year that I heed my own advice and love fiercely and be loved fiercely. I will treasure the people around me more. I will learn to enjoy the present and not be affected by both the past and future.
There are many, many things that I want to do, I hope for in 2009 but right now, there's a bittersweet feeling running through me that I can't really put into words. It's a melancholic feeling, but yet infused with expectation and hope. Yet another year has passed and another year is right before us. We can do anything we want with this blank slate.
As always, I must remind myself to remember God, to be thankful for the past year, and also to expect something for the year ahead. Like all relationships, I want to be on a deeper level with Him this year. I just want to be more faithful, more hungry and more reliant on Him. Let me go through 2009 not by my own strength, not alone but with God by my side every step of the way.
I hope that for me, 2009 would be a year of greater heights, and of greater breakthroughs. 2009 would be a year that I heed my own advice and love fiercely and be loved fiercely. I will treasure the people around me more. I will learn to enjoy the present and not be affected by both the past and future.
There are many, many things that I want to do, I hope for in 2009 but right now, there's a bittersweet feeling running through me that I can't really put into words. It's a melancholic feeling, but yet infused with expectation and hope. Yet another year has passed and another year is right before us. We can do anything we want with this blank slate.
As always, I must remind myself to remember God, to be thankful for the past year, and also to expect something for the year ahead. Like all relationships, I want to be on a deeper level with Him this year. I just want to be more faithful, more hungry and more reliant on Him. Let me go through 2009 not by my own strength, not alone but with God by my side every step of the way.
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