Good for nothing

So, when you have to stare at yourself and be brutally honest with yourself, without all the pretense, without all the buffer and walls and excuses that you give to make yourself feel better; when you admit that every mistake, past, present and future is your own fault. That you have to stand by every decision you make and made, good or bad; that even choosing not to choose is a choice. That where you are at right now is the consequence of what you did or did not do. When you suddenly realise that you have nothing that sets you apart. When you realise that what you thought makes you special make roughly 1 million other people special. When you realise that you are like a court jester who has lost his ability to make the king laugh, like a lion with his teeth pulled, like a fish without his fins, like a eagle without his wings, you are good for nothing. And when you realise that you are good for nothing, there is Someone who will think that finally, you are good for something.