Wednesday, February 10, 2010

King of wishful thinking - Go West

10 more days

10 more days. Hurry hurry. I want to get on with my life.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Passion

'What excites you? What is your passion? What drives you?' I just had these questions posed to me at my first interview for a job, at City College. And guess what? I got stuck at these questions and started talking gibberish. Great way to perform in my first interview... Sheesh.

But more than that, I realised something. That come to think of it, I don't really have something in particular that I am absolutely passionate about... Well, nothing that really matters. I could say 'jeans' but that is just ridiculous.

If nothing else came out of the interview, at least it got me thinking: What is my passion in life? What excites me? What drives me? I was tempted in the interview to say money, but the truth is, I am not that materialistic. I like to think that there is more to me than just such a shallow aspect.

I guess I have got much soul searching, and self examination, to do. I need to find myself, be comfortable with myself, and settle within myself, 'What is my passion?' The road to self-discovery looks to me right now, to be long and winding.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Heartless

I like this video, only because the drawings are cool. If only I could draw like that. Hahaha. I don't particularly like The Fray's cover of Heartless though. I think they do their own songs much better.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Job seeking

Okay. So after 'graduating' from school, the next step, after slacking, is to start looking for a job. Now, it's not as easy as it looks. Here are some easy steps to get you going...

First, you have got to find the motivation and the drive to get off your butt to do something. Done? Now, get off your butt and do something RELATED to looking for a job....

Second, now that we are on the same page, this is very important. Listen carefully now. Take a look at your contacts, people that you know, and see... Who has the most potential? To take all the complaining and whining that 'studying is much more fun,' or how 'I don't know what to do with my life,' or 'I just want to relax first,' or related nonsense.

Third, whine to the person with the most potential, preferably someone who is in the same boat as you, until they can't take anymore of your nonsense. Then move on to the next most potential person. Continue as much as needed.

Fourth, being mentally prepared is of utmost importance. Be prepared that people around you, especially your well-meaning family, are going to ask you when you are going to start looking for a job and stop whiling your time away. Be prepared with witty repartees like, 'I am just gathering myself up so that I can be the next President of Singapore,' or the like. That will leave them speechless and you have achieved your aim, to silence them.

As you can see, currently I am in the midst of looking for a job, which is the most natural step to take, now that I have officially finished my studies. The problem is, or rather, the problems are, I don't know what I can do, or what I would like to do. My resume is not up yet, although I will get started on it real soon (I promise) and I am running out of energy being bored at home with nothing to do.

So, I guess it's time to really start getting down to work and start taking an interest in my future. Wish me all the best in my job hunt. I will start tomorrow....

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Irony

Isn't it ironic...

That the most precious things, are often the ones we neglect?
That contentment, which is found in the simple things, are often complicated by us?
That the more you want something, the more elusive it get?
That the less you want something, the more it appears in your life?
That the opinions of strangers matter more than those close to you?
That you hurt the ones you love the most, and treat outsiders with utmost respect?
That you don't miss your water until the well runs dry?
That you can't look people straight in the eye unless you are trying to lie?
That talk is cheap but sometimes, words can leave such deep scars?
That when people say that the outside shouldn't matter and yet take notice of it?
That only in the deepest, darkest night, can a light shine the brightest?

No?

Sunday, January 3, 2010

New year

So, it's the new year; a fresh slate, on which we can dictate and control what is going to be written on it. A start of something new, and what better way to start the new year that hearing a reminder to look ahead, and not look at things past? (thank you so much, Pst Tan! =D) So, this year is going to be awesome!

While I still have to write out and plan my new year resolutions, this is a general feeling that I have for this year: It is going to be a year of seeking, and exploring, and discovery, and exciting things! But this will only come about when I have the discipline and tenacity to stick to the things that I am supposed to do.

Quite a number of people have commented to me, at various stages of my life, that they reckon I am a rather disciplined and determined individual and me knowing myself best, I would have to disagree. If only people could see how easily I give up, how little discipline I have, they wouldn't have said that. Ha! But identifying the problem is always a good start to dealing with it, no?

So, here's to a great 2010, the start of a new year, and a new decade, and incidentally, a new phase of my life. May this year bring more discipline, more tenacity, more determination, more faith, and more breakthroughs! I speak into you, 2010, be blessed!