Deep things vs. simple things

So, Feli, Will and I had a deep, deep talk about life at lunch. Actually, mostly, they talked and I listened. And I realised that we are quite different in that aspect. They like to think about the deep things in life, like how the world is formed and all that. I, on the other hand, don't like to think about these kind of things. I admit that there are things out there that are beyond our comprehension. And it is also true that if we accept things as they are and not think further that what we are comfortable with, there will be no progress. But like what Feli said, it comes to a point where you just hit a brick wall.
How I see things is like this; I prefer to keep things simple. I am not a deep thinker and sometimes, deep thinking scares me. And I admit that I am no great thinker as well. But when you face the unknown, and perhaps the never-to-be-known, where do you go from there? To me, that's where faith, belief in something, comes in. True, our faith may be flawed as we are flawed. But to me, without faith, life is scary. Without faith, everything seems meaningless. There is no point in doing anything at all.
To each his own. Will said something that really struck a cord. He said in view of the entire universe, which by the way is expanding at the speed of light, we are so small and insignificant. Perhaps the things that we do have no effect on the grand scheme of things. But I beg to differ. The butterfly effect. It may be unproven but it brings up an interesting concept. A flap of a butterfly's wings may cause a typhoon somewhere else. I believe that we can and are making a difference in the world with the things that we do. Well, it may be just me but somehow, life seems easier to live this way.
My thinking may be simple minded but I am not simplistic. Many a times, I do question my faith and all but somehow, I feel that life would be unimaginable for me to live without faith. Somethings are too deep for our limited minds and it is just easier for me to accept that I don't know and may never know in my lifetime and trust. Even at the end, if there is really nothing but oblivion, I still feel that my life is better lived this way. Someday we'll know, we'll all know. But for now, I want to keep my life simple and just believe.

Feminism

Just had a thought provoking lesson today in COM 337. We learnt about feminist theories and it is always interesting to see how people react. There wasn't much interaction in class though. But here's my (boring) take on this. I am not a chauvinist. But at the same time, I do not believe in equality of sexes. Let me explain. By no equality I mean, there are some things that men can do that women can't and vice versa. For example, women are not as physically strong as men in general, although I have seen tough, tough women beat up tough, tough men (check out Discovery Channel's Fight Quest) and men can't give birth to children. But this doesn't not discount anything from either sex. It's not who's better but rather it's about just being different. It's like a jig saw puzzle; if all pieces are the same, how is the puzzle going to be pieced together? I believe that men and women are different so as to form a larger whole.
Also, I feel that if you want equality, you can't expect any special treatment. This applies to everyone but from my limited perspective, I can only comment on some girls who claim to be feminists. They want equal rights but demand that people hold doors open for them, to carry heavy things for them. They demand equal rights but not equal treatment. Anything that they feel that is not right, they shout feminism. But think about it; there are inherent differences between the sexes and with these differences come about different treatments. Men are tougher physically and therefore it is compulsory to go for National Service in Singapore. Women can choose to serve in the military but men have no choice. Is this equal treatment? No. But I don't think there is anything wrong.
From a guy's point of view, I feel that mistaken 'feminists' who don't understand what they are fighting for are the real obstacle to female rights. I respect people who stand up for what they believe in but these so called feminists are just using the cover of feminism to justify some things that they do. The law in Singapore protects the female from sexual harassment. Would anybody, guy or girl like that to change? Equal rights to me means that guys are innocent until proven guilty, not guilty until proven innocent. Like what I said, things like these issues are just born out of inherent differences. The point is, you can't expect equality when there are inherent differences!
This is just my point of view. I treat my female friends differently from my male friends; I don't play punching games with my female friends like I do with my male friends. ;D Come on, just admit it. There are things that you don't do to a girl and there are things that you don't do to a guy. Why? Inherent differences! I don't think that guys are better than girls or vice versa. I just feel that we are different, and it's all good.

Overwhelmed

You know the feeling, when you are so overwhelmed with work and the prospect of the upcoming week of work that you don't even know where to start? And you end up just running around helter skelter and not doing anything? Well, right now, that's the story of my life. So many things to do that I don't even know where to begin. Oh well, one step at a time I guess. Going to be a tough week ahead. :(

Yummers

Today, I had one of the most delish steaks I have ever tasted so far. At Hogsbreath at Holland V. I had the blackened prime rib (sounds horrid but I assure, super tasty!) and Kev had the marinated prime fillet. This is the first time I tasted something so tasty that even the fatty bits had the flavour infused into it! Hahaha. But the sides of garden veggies and baked potato were so-so. But the steak more than covers this small flaw up! So meat lovers, do give Hogsbreath a try someday. And oh, for some reason we had a 20% discount so our meal barely cost us $30 each! :D Yummers!

A little boy

There was once this little boy, who wasn't afraid of the dark. He was full of hope and optimism, so much so that the dark just seemed mysterious and exciting, not scary. Then one day, he fell and hurt himself in the dark. Now, he was lost and scared in the seemingly endless dark.
One day, he saw a beam of light up ahead. Drawing closer, he could feel the warmth and the comfort of the light. Stepping closer, he basked in the light. Slowly but surely, he started to enjoy the warmth of the light, hoping that this light was lit for him and him alone.
But as his eyes got used to the light, he realised that the light that lit his life up was not a light solely lit for him but it was the sun, that shone down on everyone. Soon, he became jealous of the people who were 'sharing' his light. Then, he became angry with the sun.
'Why must you shine down on everyone?!?'
But slowly, he came to his senses and realised that it was in the nature of the sun to shine on everyone; that he was the silly one to think that the sun shone for him alone. So he turned his back from the sun and walked back into the dark.
He was still afraid of the dark but the thought of misunderstanding the sun and the loss that came with the understanding was a scarier thought. So into the dark he went.

You

'It's sad, so sad, it's a sad sad situation. And it's getting more and more absurd.'
Do you think that it is a sad thing, that there may not be anyone in the world who knows the real you. Yes, the real you. Not the one that you present to the world everyday and may not even be the one that you reveal to a few close people. But the REAL YOU. The 'you' that shows up when you are alone, when you are hurting, when you are thinking thoughts that you can't reveal to anyone at all. The 'you' that only you know, from the deepest depths of your being.
A square peg does not fit into a round hole. Do you sometimes feel that you are like a fish out of water, that you don't fit in. That no matter how hard you try, you can't find your place in this world because you are trying to be someone you are not. And being someone you are not takes up so much of your energy, your effort that you can't even remember who you really are.
And sometimes, you really want to catch the wave, to go with the flow. But yet, how can you flow when you are ice and you have to be water to flow? You can only float and hope that you are able to keep up. All the while you are trying to keep up, you are melting, losing your self bit by bit.
So, to quote an excellent poet Jeremy from his excellent poem, 'Can I?'
'Can I just be me? Can I just be free?'
'That's me in the corner, that's me in the spotlight.......'

It's a weird thing but I realised that I just sent my 811s for their 4th wash today. I didn't realise that I washed them so many times. :( Oh well. After much complaining from people around, I decided to freshen up the smell of the 811s.