I am on the cusp of completing my first ever In Camp Training (ICT) and it has been an....... interesting experience, to say the least. But come Monday, I am going to be dumped back into reality. And my reality is that, I am STILL looking for a job.
Oh, the feeling of my cold harsh reality.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Combat shoot
Just got home after my combat shoot at the range today. This is perhaps the most tiring day of the entire ICT so far; so much so that I can only write this much.
Monday, July 12, 2010
PF Flyers for life
Was out the whole day messing around and running about, and at the end of the day, I realised that my feet did not hurt as much as they used to hurt after a day of wearing Converses. And this is thanks to my new love, PF Flyers. I've got the Bob Cousy Hi All American, in white leather. Sweet. I have found my anti-Converses! PF Flyers for life!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
I am off
Sorry if I offend, but this is my stop and I am getting off your Silliness Express. Next stop, Heartbreak Hotel at Wrecked Emotions Station. I'd like to think that I have been trying my best. Well, perhaps the only consolation is that if you need me, I'd take the next train down to you.
But this is my stop.
Here.
Now.
But this is my stop.
Here.
Now.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Strength
Aren't we humans funny?
At least for me, I feel that I am such a bag of contradictions. It is as though both push and pull exist simultaneously in my life.
We know, and we accept that we as humans are not perfect. But when other people's flaws come to light, we focus on those flaws and are unable to look past those flaws to who the person really is. We distract ourselves from the fact that the person may, and most likely have redeeming qualities.
But when it comes to ourselves, when our flaws are brought to our attention, somehow we can't stand it. We begin to try to justify the things that we do, we try to cover the faults with our (most probably unrelated) strengths, we try to brush it off, we try everything we can; we even try to point out that imperfection is inherent in everyone; no one's perfect.
Somehow, we can try to accept imperfection in ourselves, but not in others.
But the fact of the matter is this: We still feel very much uncomfortable with the notion that we are flawed, that we are not perfect. It is one thing to have knowledge that everyone is imperfect; yet it is another thing to experience it in ourselves, and have it brought to the attention of ourselves, and the people around.
A recent revelation of mine: Strength is much valued in the world, but it is our weaknesses that make us reliant on something other than ourselves for strength. We know we are imperfect, yet we want to rely on our own strengths. But it is exactly because we are imperfect that we cannot rely on our own strengths, however strong those may be.
Some times, we really can't make it on our own. Some times, merely admitting that we need help is the greatest strength that we can have. Some times, it's good to know someone stronger than us.
So, where do you turn to when you know that you can't exactly rely on your own strength?
When I am weak, then I am strong. II Corinthians 12:9-10
At least for me, I feel that I am such a bag of contradictions. It is as though both push and pull exist simultaneously in my life.
We know, and we accept that we as humans are not perfect. But when other people's flaws come to light, we focus on those flaws and are unable to look past those flaws to who the person really is. We distract ourselves from the fact that the person may, and most likely have redeeming qualities.
But when it comes to ourselves, when our flaws are brought to our attention, somehow we can't stand it. We begin to try to justify the things that we do, we try to cover the faults with our (most probably unrelated) strengths, we try to brush it off, we try everything we can; we even try to point out that imperfection is inherent in everyone; no one's perfect.
Somehow, we can try to accept imperfection in ourselves, but not in others.
But the fact of the matter is this: We still feel very much uncomfortable with the notion that we are flawed, that we are not perfect. It is one thing to have knowledge that everyone is imperfect; yet it is another thing to experience it in ourselves, and have it brought to the attention of ourselves, and the people around.
A recent revelation of mine: Strength is much valued in the world, but it is our weaknesses that make us reliant on something other than ourselves for strength. We know we are imperfect, yet we want to rely on our own strengths. But it is exactly because we are imperfect that we cannot rely on our own strengths, however strong those may be.
Some times, we really can't make it on our own. Some times, merely admitting that we need help is the greatest strength that we can have. Some times, it's good to know someone stronger than us.
So, where do you turn to when you know that you can't exactly rely on your own strength?
When I am weak, then I am strong. II Corinthians 12:9-10
Friday, July 2, 2010
Breaking out of the cycle
When can we all break out of the cycles that hold us down, those downward spirals that have us trapped?
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